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Thursday, November 10, 2005
it has been a long time since im feeling the emptiness and lost ever again. guess there were just too many things i had to settle plus everything seemed to be stressing me totally out. been drinking at my void deck the past few nites, spending hours thinking through everthing that has happened. my oral presentation was todae and i hardly practised for it, i felt out with two of my frens recently plus my mum's going for an operation next thurs. sadly, my dearest left me at times like this, times when i needed her the most. she has chose to give me up. out of everything, it was me she gave up. i guess disappointments are just part of our lives. i cant describe the hurt im feeling rite now, but i know it's killing me. i thot no matter what happens, we'll alwaes be hanging on till the end. im wrong. you've just made me realised how much i actually stand in your heart.

i've been worrying abt you ever since you got over to the states. that insecure feeling just seemed to get worser each dae. all i wanted was at the end of your tiring dae at work, i hope my regards to you could really brighten you up. seriously speaking, i dont think you actually know or understand me well. do you know that by doing this, you're not only being selfish, you're making me feel much worser than before? you're alwaes telling me to put myself in your shoes, but have you actually tried putting yourself in my shoes as well? you sticked to your decision you've made. you didnt give me a choice to choose at all. not at all.

is this the heart you promised me i could trust? are you the one i can lean on when im down? you know the most hurting thing you ever said was you think i might start cursing and swearing at you. so this must be the kind of impression you have of me after knowing me for the past few months. you know my character alrite. i'll never do such things to anyone, let alone say to the one i love. im lost for words. really, i am.

it wasnt easy for me to let go of kai and sink deeper into another relationship.my heart had it's uncertainties, but when i finally said yes, i was sure i really love you. you really mean a lot to me. dun worry, no matter what, i've still decided to respect your decision. im glad that by making this decision, you'll be able to concentrate on your work as well. just dont let me down alrite?

every little smile can touch someone's heart. may you find hundreds of reasons to smile and may you be the reason for someone else to smile alwaes. hugs*




`dazzle* _go green1:00 AM


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Finally I figured out
But it took a long time
But now there's a turnabout
Maybe cos im trying

Times im so confused
All my roads,
They lead to you
I just can't turn
or walk away

It's hard to say
what it is I see in you
But words can't say,
And I can't do
Enough to prove,
It's all for you


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