Tuesday, April 19, 2005
im on the verge of breaking down. im on the verge of going crazy. -cried. this isnt the first or second or third time im crying so hard cos of you. deep down, i know you mean so much to me and i cant lose you. i've got a lot i wanted to say it out but i cant. im feeling so terrible and so lost. you dont understand. u dont. sigh. baby do u know how hard i prayed, hoping we'll alwaes be together? baby do u know im so afraid to lose you? do u know i get so worried whenever i receive ur call or sms? that's cos im afraid one dae you'll tell me you dun want me anymore. im feeling tired from all that crying. i feel that i dun have the strength to carry on. i hate it when we quarrel. i get upset when u dun reply my sms. i admit i was at fault when i didnt tell you wad happened but that's cos im not supposed to say it out. it's not that i dun trust you. if i believed them, i would be ignoring you. but i decided to forget the whole thing cos i thot nothing else matters as long as i know i love you and you love me. baby i know you're angry wif me now. im sorry im sorry im sorry. sigh. when i asked you if you really love me.. it's not that i dun trust ur love for me. it's just that i wanna hear the answerr straight from your mouth. it seems like we're drifting apart.. why must things turn out this way? :( ytd was our 2nd mth but we hardly talked. sigh. i ask myself.. are u gonna continue ignoring me? continue being angry wif me? im really going crazy soon. sigh. -state of depression-
`dazzle* _go green8:25 PM